My emotions are at a really
big high today. One of my dearest and closest friends in high
school 1977-1979 just capitulated and joined Facebook. Wow!!!!
Like
everyone in life, we had gone our separate ways after high school, we sort of
drifted apart during our senior year (my fault). Then as the years quickly
passed and life took over I just dealt with what I needed to at the moment.
This was my life just surviving one moment upon another. I didn't take the
smart path.I didn't go to college. I didn't think much of myself. I
didn't think I was very smart. But I never forgot her. I can go back in my
mind and see us chatting through the halls walking so slow savoring every
moment together dragging behind until we gained the nic names Snail and Slug..
But which was I? I need to ask her...hmmmm
In 1999 I
went back to school and discovered I was no dumb bunny. I graduated with a GPA
of 3.85 and the only reason I did not do better was because of my sociology
instructor He ruined my perfect 4.0 by giving me a C, he only rewarded one
student per semester with an A and I was not that student. Still, I was on the
Deans or Presidents list every semester I was in college...how did I not see
that I was that smart? Why is youth spent in such a destructive cycle for some
people.My son and I graduated the same year, him from high school me from
college I was ready to gooo and discover what I could do then my son joined the
military and life stood still for me.
He went
into the Marine Corps and headed to Iraq. The stress and worry of him being in
such danger took it's toll and five years ago I was diagnosed with A.L.L.
Leukemia , my prognoses was not very good. I didn't feel sick, I was
just tired and I was in pain. I didn't consider death as an option and I think
that is how I survived it all. I KNEW I was sick, but I didn't consider myself
as being sick. I felt fine.
But
surviving cancer and it's treatment is different then being sick, it puts a
spin on your mind and how you see people and things. I want to go out and do
the things I did before and my body won't let me. I am super slow. I get up in
the morning with a plan of attack and find myself sitting all day behind my
computer doing ...not much.
Through
out it all I have had lots of time to reflect and decide what and who mattered
most to me. Some things and people became intolerable. I saw some
people who had been in my life like the cancer, they were selfish , self
involved and hurtful, toxic. How did I not see it before? I started to cut them
out. And it got better. But I never forgot my friends I had lost and I started
to look for them.
Slowly I have found a few, Becky,Lily, Shirley and now my sweet Lia Ling. The only thing that would make this moment sweeter is if I could grab her and hug her to me. I never want to let her go again.
Slowly I have found a few, Becky,Lily, Shirley and now my sweet Lia Ling. The only thing that would make this moment sweeter is if I could grab her and hug her to me. I never want to let her go again.
As an
added surprise and bonus another of my friends was found today! Anne! I had
reconnected
with her sister and brother in law some years ago but thought (wrongly) that she had no desire to talk to me. When in fact she had been looking for me all along! Wow what kind of day is this!!
Now to find Martha.... my circle will be complete
with her sister and brother in law some years ago but thought (wrongly) that she had no desire to talk to me. When in fact she had been looking for me all along! Wow what kind of day is this!!
Now to find Martha.... my circle will be complete
Cherish your
loved ones and hold them tight, they are what is important.
2 comments:
What a beautiful article, I'm glad you found her! Facebook has allowed me to virtually hook up with friends from my past too, including some I hadn't spoken to in 30 years.
Isn't it wonderful Mike! And to find 2 in one day!
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